i did not like high school.
i had some good memories...ill stress some. most of them were nightmares. i dunno why everytime i see/watch/hear something about it, it reminds me of a time when i hated myself.
seriously. i was the biggest drama queen and self-saboteur. i remember how disgruntled and completely unhappy i was. im actually shocked looking back that i had friends.
i look back on the pictures and realize how awkward i was. i remember i didnt date...and i told people it was because i just wasnt ready or because i was focused on school or i didnt have time...but the truth is, no one really asked. i wasnt the sparkling diamond by far. the way i remember things, people only knew who i was bc i was blood related to someone that mattered. i never really knew if people liked me for me, or bc i was fortunately born into a certain family.
and i remember college...the glasses went away. the fact that i wore sweats and t shirts everyday was considered cool...it was considered the style. i remember when guys would talk to me, i knew they were talking to me bc they thought i was cool, cute or even easy...at that point, anything was better than being someone's sister...i remember how much i blossomed as a person. if anyone would believe it, i was actually nicer in college. ha.
i remember the freedom. granted freshman year i was dating someone...but like all my other relationships, long distance.
anyways, rambling. im just saying. i didnt like high school. and thinking back, it even makes me want to cry. seriously, i was that girl that wore pants to homecoming, ran away from home and no one noticed, slammed doors and cried myself to sleep for no reason, was late to the PSATs bc my brother didnt get me home early enough, didnt smile in my prom pictures, and rushed home so my parents could see me all dressed up - only to find they didnt wait up...sat on the curb at project prom, waiting for my date bc his parents did...was the only person in all of project prom not to receive a senior gift, went to work after project prom, bc i had to...spent as little money as possible on prom so that i could save money for college...i hated high school.
i still hate high school. i feel sorry for everyone that has to go through it. thinking back, i can only wish for 3 letters...GED.
